Was Jesus aware of being Yahweh?

Was Jesus aware of being Yahweh?



I have wondered how Christians rationalized Jesus' last words --- "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"



Jesus seems unaware that he was God.



What did Jesus mean by forsaken?



The usual definition means abandoned or deserted.



How can one abandon or desert themselves?



If Jesus knew he was Yahweh, how did he feel about the poor reputation the Jews gave Yahweh?



Is that why the Jews tried to kill Jesus more than once before the cross got him?



Further.



Jesus also said that he and god were one, yet scriptures seem to show Jesus as Yahweh’s good side and Yahweh as the evil side.



If Jesus/Yahweh shared the some consciousness, which they would have to given that there is only one god in Christianity, why are they so different?



Regards

DL