Self-Induced Psychosis leading to Philosophical Awakening

Before my psychosis, I loved philosophy and there were many complexities that I never understood. But during my episode, I was making so many connections through vowels and language that I was never able to do before. Afterwards, I feel more relaxed and have a higher awareness that allows me to understand philosophical jargon now... Being a teen, I experimented with many drugs to try to attain what I called "Forbidden Wisdom" and I would always gain new logic from these substances. My psychosis was phenomenal, but it became my worst nightmare within reality just as fast. I overcame it and gained so much from it. Keep in mind, my psychosis was not drug induced, it was a lack of sleep... many people did not understand it, but not very many people are philosophers nor do they understand axioms or axioms within language.