Clovis Merovingian
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Elder
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Meta-Ethnicity: Anglo-American
Ethnicity: Deep Southerner
Country: My State and my Region are my country
Region: The Deep South
Location: South Carolina
Ancestry: Gaelic (patrilineal), English, Ulster Scots/Scots Irish, Scottish, German, Swiss German, Swedish, Manx, Finnish, Norman French/Quebecois (distantly), Dutch (distantly)
Taxonomy: Borreby/Alpine/ Nordid mix
Y-DNA: R-S660/R-DF109
mtDNA: T1a1
Politics: Conservative
Religion: Christian
Hero: Andrew Jackson, Thomas Jefferson, James K. Polk
Age: 30
Philosophy: I try to find out what is true as best I can.
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Post by Clovis Merovingian on Apr 30, 2018 1:25:25 GMT
I notice that there are some Christians on this site, true Christians who might be able to help. This may be quite a long story or not but I'm asking every Christian everywhere I go for help and do not get a satisfactory answer. I was saved on mothers day when I was nine years old. For a year or two after that I enjoyed an unparalleled relationship with God. I could feel the Holy Spirit coursing through me as I praised him in church. I was prompted by the spirit to do good works and live a life not under slavery to sin. I read the Bible with vigor, I praised God with vigor, I loved God with all my heart, and I feared disappointing him. When I sinned I felt that something inside me was grieving horribly and I confessed my sin immediately and felt cleansed of it. This was my relationship with God until I read a passage in the Bible spoken by Jesus about the unpardonable sin. I became deathly afraid of committing it and do to my obsessive compulsive tendencies that comes along with having aspergers syndrome (high functioning autism) I began having invasive thoughts which led to horrible words which led to fear for my very soul. I would cry out to God for forgiveness and he did forgive me, but each time I would become afraid and wouldn't believe it. One day as I was begging for forgiveness God withdrew his spirit from me, and from that day on my life went down hill. I started sinning, I lost my fear of God, and I've lost much of the love I once felt for God. My heart has hardened to numbness. This has been going on for 14 almost 15 years and I've been trying to return to God and restore my relationship with Jesus for call of those years. I've tried manually turning from my sins and it didn't work. I've tried asking God for forgiveness and restoration but it doesn't work. It seems that right now I am stuck in limbo and have no idea how to get out. Do any of you Christians know how I am to restore my relationship with Jesus, and if the Bible even says anything about any of this because I can't find it anywhere in that whole book. Thank you in advance.
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Post by Διαμονδ on Apr 30, 2018 16:14:59 GMT
Man by nature can not get rid of sin .. so need a feat! In Orthodoxy we read about the lives of saints about how they were sinful ... but many of them abandoned the worldly vanity for the sake of God's service! In the New Testament, for example John the Baptist!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2018 16:18:16 GMT
I don't know, even I am feeling an urge to move towards christianity now. Slowly and steadily. No, it's not due to hatred on others, but a kind of devotional feeling which even I am acquiring slowly and steadily.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2018 16:19:38 GMT
Man by nature can not get rid of sin .. so need a feat! In Orthodoxy we read about the lives of saints about how they were sinful ... but many of them abandoned the worldly vanity for the sake of God's service! In the New Testament, for example John the Baptist! That was the message of the christ, serve God, as he is the HOLY FATHER, I think.
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Post by Διαμονδ on Apr 30, 2018 16:20:12 GMT
I don't know, even I am feeling an urge to move towards christianity now. Slowly and steadily. No, it's not due to hatred on others, but a kind of devotional feeling which even I am acquiring slowly and steadily. First of all you need to know the history of the subject!
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Post by Διαμονδ on Apr 30, 2018 16:21:29 GMT
Man by nature can not get rid of sin .. so need a feat! In Orthodoxy we read about the lives of saints about how they were sinful ... but many of them abandoned the worldly vanity for the sake of God's service! In the New Testament, for example John the Baptist! That was the message of the christ, serve God, as he is the HOLY FATHER, I think. Well, everyone has his own level! Not all will go to the monastery..you?
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Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2018 16:22:48 GMT
That was the message of the christ, serve God, as he is the HOLY FATHER, I think. Well, everyone has his own level! Not all will go to the monastery..you? i am married, so cannot commit this crime of escapism, which even christ has asked not to do.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2018 16:23:51 GMT
I don't know, even I am feeling an urge to move towards christianity now. Slowly and steadily. No, it's not due to hatred on others, but a kind of devotional feeling which even I am acquiring slowly and steadily. First of all you need to know the history of the subject! I am ready to study and understand, not just know
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