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Post by Ana on Feb 20, 2018 10:28:43 GMT
I was just wondering whether there is anyone here that have this disorder or with a friend that has one and whether you can share your experience with us dealing with it/the person personally? I've gone through stages that I, myself could not explain and was wondering whether you may have experienced the same thing?
If I stopped taking medication and lacking sleep I would start hearing things, I would experience psychosis in such a way that I would feel as though my thoughts are being channeled through others and this would freak me out because it would soon start to emerge through objects such as the television and the radio. I remembered playing Spotify and felt as though the music that was queued for me was a message from somebody. Immense paranoia, I felt violated as though people were digging in my private life. But I'm on the path of recovery, and I feel better now with proper medication, I no longer felt threatened and I was able to fit in. Of course I had the ups as well, the manic phases where I felt so confident to the point of never shutting up because I was so filled with many brilliant ideas. It's too bad that I didn't keep a journal then, would've loved to see what I had thought about. Now, I'm much more calm and I don't think I've had any breakthrough at all. Which is quite sad when you think of it, but oh well everything comes with a price.
Any thoughts? Please share.
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Post by Elizabeth on Feb 20, 2018 10:39:39 GMT
How many different types are there? And how do they differ from each other? If you know.
Sorry about your experience though. How long have you had it? And I don't know anyone personally who has it.
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Post by Ana on Feb 20, 2018 11:03:58 GMT
Well generally there are three types: Bipolar Type I and II & Cyclothymic. And the diagnose of I and II depends on the severity of the mania that the person has whereby for Cyclothymic is the short-term period of mania or depressive symptoms. You can also have mixed where it could be a mixture of any of these types. Ah, don't be sorry. It's interesting to experience such things! I've had this for a couple of years now. And it's okay.
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Post by Elizabeth on Feb 20, 2018 11:09:20 GMT
Well generally there are three types: Bipolar Type I and II & Cyclothymic. And the diagnose of I and II depends on the severity of the mania that the person has whereby for Cyclothymic is the short-term period of mania or depressive symptoms. You can also have mixed where it could be a mixture of any of these types. Ah, don't be sorry. It's interesting to experience such things! I've had this for a couple of years now. And it's okay. How did it first start when you realized something wasn't right? If you're ok with talking about it that is.
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Post by Ana on Feb 21, 2018 3:59:24 GMT
Sure, no problem. I started to realize when it affected the relationships with my friends, I kept asking them whether people are talking about me but no one ever noticed. I freaked out and begged my family to take me to a psychologist/psychiatrist.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2018 1:28:50 GMT
I could share my experience, but I didn't experience any psychosis. So, I don't know if it would be of any help.
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Post by Elizabeth on Apr 1, 2018 5:57:53 GMT
I could share my experience, but I didn't experience any psychosis. So, I don't know if it would be of any help. Share if you want. It sounds interesting and good for comparison I think.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2018 17:06:07 GMT
I could share my experience, but I didn't experience any psychosis. So, I don't know if it would be of any help. Share if you want. It sounds interesting and good for comparison I think. Alright then. It was three years ago. Since then I've mostly been fine on medication. Like I said, no psychosis. I was just was really hyperactive and hypersexual. You know, outgoing to the point of saying some pretty regrettable things and acting like a moron at school. I would go up to random people I would have never ever talked to before and say the stupidest things. It was worse for me because that's the exact opposite of how I normally am- very reserved and quiet. When my mood would go down about a week later, it would be even worse because I couldn't stop thinking about all things had I said and done while my mood was up. Initially, my manic episodes weren't as intense. I would just get depressed one week and then seemed to be feeling good the next week for no apparent reason. I happened to have an check-up appointment with my regular doctor, and he put me on Prozac to help with what we thought was just depression. That made my mood cycles a little more extreme. The bouts of depression got so difficult that I ended up in a hospital, but it was really just a big waste of time and money. They put me on anti-anxiety medicine and a different antidepressant almost immediately, which is the absolute worst thing you could give someone who's bipolar. For some reason, they didn't even notice that they had induced another manic episode, so they sent me home after two weeks. That's when everything got really bad. My manic episodes were a lot higher now, and my behavior was a lot worse. I was staying up really late and doing all kinds of weird things. I put a lot of really dumb stuff on social media. Because of the depression, my school had been trying to move me around to different places in the building during the day to make it easier for me to do my work, but they eventually just sent me to some sort of reform school. They had no idea what was going on, of course, but it ended up being more of a punishment than an aid to me. At this point, when my mood dropped, it went straight to rock bottom. I was in a catatonic state, virtually unable to do anything. When I took a shower in the morning my mom had to come check on me several times because the only thing I was capable of doing was standing there in the water, thinking about everything that had happened. I ended up in another hospital, unsurprisingly. They did the exact same thing the first hospital did. Anti-anxiety and antidepressants (plus something to pull me out of the catatonia). I went through the same dreadful mood sequence all over again. I don't remember why, but for some reason I remember asking the psychiatrist there if I was bipolar. I don't know how I would have had any idea what what was wrong with me. Anyway, whether it was because I asked about it or not, they eventually figured out what they were doing and put me on Lithium. I was in that hospital for a month, and I spent probably at least another month going to outpatient. While I was in the second hospital, I met this girl. It may have just been my mania that allowed us to get along so well, but, nevertheless we stayed in touch after we both went home. From my perspective, it's been a rocky friendship because she's always been far enough away for me to barely ever see her. We've only met in person four times, including the first time at the hospital. But, it's better knowing her then being alone, I suppose. I was so regretful about the way I had acted around the other kids at my old school that I couldn't go back. I ended up finishing the last two years of high school somewhere else. At least being a loner had an upside; I was forgettable enough that I barely had to deal with kids from my old school after I switched. So, I guess I don't really have any advice to give. Make sure you're on the right meds? I don't know. The way things turned out for me just kind of happened, and I'm lucky things turned out okay. There wasn't really a whole lot my mom or I could have done.
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Post by Elizabeth on Apr 1, 2018 19:09:24 GMT
@jugsnotdrugs I noticed you didn't mention hurting or cutting yourself while depressed. So hopefully you didn't but if you did I'm just glad it didn't take your life. How are you doing now? With depression and everything?
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Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2018 19:20:47 GMT
I haven't seen a normal person in my life. Can you describe me a normal person?
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Post by Διαμονδ on Apr 1, 2018 19:23:59 GMT
I haven't seen a normal person in my life. Can you describe me a normal person? The concept of a normal person is a relative concept ... Nothing more!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2018 19:31:10 GMT
And a relative means without solid standards. So, many psychos are just punished by the part of modern social.
Yesterday, gays and transsexuals were psychos, but everything was changed. The norms are relatives, so there are no norms; do what you want to, be the one you want to. It's simple.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2018 19:43:52 GMT
@jugsnotdrugs I noticed you didn't mention hurting or cutting yourself while depressed. So hopefully you didn't but if you did I'm just glad it didn't take your life. How are you doing now? With depression and everything? No not really. Mostly been fine, like I said. Whenever I feel bad about anything, though, it usually brings me down real far real quick.
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Post by Διαμονδ on Apr 1, 2018 22:37:25 GMT
And a relative means without solid standards. So, many psychos are just punished by the part of modern social. Yesterday, gays and transsexuals were psychos, but everything was changed. The norms are relatives, so there are no norms; do what you want to, be the one you want to. It's simple. They're still psychos today! Just some degenerates do not want to fight against this and as a way out of the situation they are called normal people!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 2, 2018 12:16:53 GMT
And a relative means without solid standards. So, many psychos are just punished by the part of modern social. Yesterday, gays and transsexuals were psychos, but everything was changed. The norms are relatives, so there are no norms; do what you want to, be the one you want to. It's simple. They're still psychos today! Just some degenerates do not want to fight against this and as a way out of the situation they are called normal people!It depends too. A society of today and a society of tomorrow is different. We can measure everyone by the one line. The most interesting idea that psychos and normal people want the same. It even can be proved. The ones call the other psychos just like the other call the ones. So we must say that the one of them are normal and the other are not. But it is impossible. We're all the whole community, we can't know any other opinions but our own. So who will be judging us? Speaking of that I'd say that normal people are the ones which still jumping from a tree to a tree, and we're calling them monkeys. Even mental disorder isn't abnormal at all. For example, a man decides to become a mad one, so he's going to harm himself or something like that. And finally he becomes one of mad ones. What's next. A society is getting rid of him. This is the only way it can handle it. So, all we can do is to cut them and paste them somewhere farther form us. If it is impossible the society kills the one. I don't agree with all this methods, so I propose to do something more loyal and civilized.
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